Time to obliterate the past!
I looked down at my feet, a little awkward and bare
But you looked me in the eyes and told me that you didn’t sense a scare
Even when everyone smirked at my colors and said it was sensitivity
You smiled at me and said that all I needed was a little creativity
I cried and I laughed and I cried again and then some more
Society framed it so I wouldn’t succeed, unless I was rich, smart, or a whore
I let the devil speak to me, he whispered every truthful lie into my ears
He told me I will never be smarter, prettier, or better than my peers
I felt like a fish who couldn’t breathe under water
I ignored your pleas “Don’t listen! Stay strong, have you forgotten who you are, my daughter?
Don’t lose sight of me, don’t forget my promises, come away with me, I’m here.”
Still, I couldn’t sense how close you were, how near.
But you felt what I felt, saw what I saw
Because you see, two thousand years ago, you came here like us, naked and raw
You were humbled, you loved, even saw my sins and did not care
How dare I say what you have given me was so little and unfair?
Every bit of resentment, blackness, and bondage I held in my heart
You lifted them and healed me; tore every hatred in me apart
And you wrestled with me, fought for me,
You cried for me, died for me…
But still sometimes I feel nothing
You see, two thousand years ago, you came here like us, naked and raw
But I stayed human, no matter how hard I tried, from this world I just couldn’t withdraw
So Jesus, no matter how far from You I walk
Please, please don’t let go of me, you know all I need is some coffee and talk
I need you more than anything right here and right now
I want to show the world that with You, I can always reap good when I sow.
i smell your scent
I believe Jehovah Jireh
I believe there’s heaven, I believe in war
I believe a woman’s temple
Gives her the right to choose but baby don’t abort
I believe that marriage isn’t
Between a man and woman but between love and love
And I believe you when you say that you’ve lost all faith
But you must believe in something, something, something
You gotta believe in something, something, something
your words sounds like music to others; mine of cacophony, sometimes unheard and misheard. your smile literally stops the world and people stare for a while; mine is ordinary, perhaps even irksome. you wish thousands of wishes on one falling star and i wish but a single one that has never changed since the day my eyes first set on that racing beam of light. you cry and the world cries with you; i don’t cry.
you have everything, and i have somethings but the way your light shines brighter than mine makes my somethings seem like nothing. when you love, it’s fierce, genuine, whimsical; but when you hate, it still seems like love. my love is lukewarm and half-hearted and mundane and boring; my hate is ugly and repugnant. if you were sunlight, i wouldn’t be just darkness but the cold wind and rain that often comes with it. if you were dirt, i’d be bacteria; almost invisible. knight in shining armors wait for you; when i thought i found mine, he rode in the direction of your brighter light, away from the dim dormancy of my chasm that i call an entity.
i once thought that my life would be an endless story, a standing ovation, something to stir the hearts of others. but i am a mere sentence in your book; yes, you are a book and i am a sentence. i don’t tell a story, but an idea, if not an idea, a segment of a thought. but with that sentence, i will stay unmitigated and frank, something only a shadow can learn to do so well.